Betsy's Blog

When I became an SMC, I always believed that having a child would relieve the "biological clock" pressure that made me feel the need to rush relationships. I look back on all the guys I dated after breaking up with my last long term boyfriend, and I have to wonder if it may have been sucessful withouth the pressure.

I will never know.

It is interesting that I have not had an oportunity to test my hypothosis in the 3 plus years since I was pregnant and have become a mom. I have not had the desire I guess to date-to see if it is possible to just hang out with someone, to take my time and enjoy the day to day wonderful concept of slowly getting to know someone.

I had a date the other night. A real date-the kind where you get a babysitter and enjoy the adult only company that only a date can bring. We had a great time, and for the first time in a long time, I felt that *feeling* again- the way you feel when you kiss someone other than your child. It felt great to be touched, to kiss and feel and all the other things I took for granted before I became a mom.

It has been 4 days since that date. It has been a wonderful, peaceful and happy realization: My hypothosis was correct: It is SOOO much better without the pressure. I can actually take the time to enjoy it.

Yay!