Betsy's Blog

Aidan saw an ENT this week, who recommended surgery to remove his adenoids, put tubes in his ears, test him for allergies, and look down his throat with a scope. (to make sure his chronic sinus/ear infections are not caused by reflux) This will happen this Monday.

Logically, I know that Aidan will be so much better after surgery. He will not be sick as often, and finding out what he is allergic to will be so helpful. I know that the doc has problably done this surgery a million times, and in the scheme of things it is not that big of a deal, but it scares the hell out of me.

So the surgery is at 1:30pm, and I cannot feed him anything after 7:30am. Not feed a toddler for 8 hrs? WOW, that will be tough. More worrisome, and so incredibly stressful for me is the separation. I am not sure the hospital will allow me to be with Aidan as they put him to sleep and I do not want him to be traumatized as they remove him from my arms and onto the operating table. It makes me so sad.

I am having terrible nightmares. Of losing AJ and being so scared that I cannot find him. I worry about all the potential complications and medical-ish stuff I know because I have been in the medical field. (or read about it) My sweet little guy turned 2 yesterday. My joy, light, and love, will be operated on. Scares the hell out of me.